I'm so confused right now and i'm angry and i just don't know what to do right now.
I thought i was ok but maybe i'm not after all.
I hope i didn't mis judge my feelings.
I hope i did the right thing, cuz if i didn't then it's never going to be the same.

I just got back from camp today and I had an incredible week.
Before I went to camp I had no idea what God was going to do.

To back track a bit, last year at camp God began the work of moving a mountain in my life. I've learned how to trust God and put my faith in him even when I don't know why or I don't understand. I've learned what his voice sounds like, and how to be constantly in tune with it. Sometimes I hear God's voice so clearly it scares me. So this week God had me put everything that i've learned to the test. He made me tell people things when I didn't know why i was saying them. But he knew what they needed to hear. I prayed selfish prayers this week during my devotions, and God answered every single one of them.

I never really had one of those moments at the alter with God, but that's ok. God showed me how much power I have because he's living in me. He also reminded me of my dreams and that I need to keep moving forward even though it gets rough.

doing the right thing

Sometimes you have to do things that you don't want to do, but you know it's the right thing. So you just trust God and hope for the best.

what's so bad about God?

Jeremiah 2:5 "This is what the lord says 'what fault did your fathers find in me, that they strayed so far from me? They followed worthless idols and became worthless themselves."

Reading that got me to thinking, what's so bad about God that we can't put him first all the time? He gave us everything, and we still put something else before him. Alls God wants is for us to put him first before anything else; he longs to spend time with us and he longs for us to talk to him. The funny thing is, when he is number one, all the other priorities fall into place and it's easy for him to be number one.

I'm perfectly guilty in the past of not having God always be first. I've tasted what it's like not to have him be my number one, and I never want to go back to that again. He comes to me with nothing but grace and love every time I mess up or make a mistake. He saved my life, he is all deserving of being put first.

life to the fullest

We don't know when the world is going to end. It could be tomorrow. So why don't we live everyday like it's our last? If we started living like that, then would we take more risks? Or would we just stay under our safety blankets? Would we make sure that everyone we came in contact with knew about salvation through Jesus? Or would we just go on about our business?

We all have this one life that God gave us. We only have one shot on earth to fulfill the "great commission" which says "...Therefore go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the father and of the sun and of the holy spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded" Matthew 28:19, 20. Those were some of Jesus' last words to the disciples. If we lived everyday like it was our last then would we as Christians work harder at making sure that it was fulfilled?

For life in general we should always be living each day like it's our last.
When you say goodbye to someone, say it like it's the last time you're going to see them.
Don't stress about things that aren't worth fretting over.
Spend time with the people you love instead of doing something that can be done later.
Most of all, don't ever go to sleep at night angry or with regrets.

My motto in life that I try to live up to is to always take risks. We have one chance to live life to its fullest, so why not do something your scared of? Chances are after it's over, you won't regret it.

what would you do

What would you do today, if you knew that the world was going to come to an end tomorrow?

born-again blogger

I am now a born-again blogger. I used to blog all the time but stopped for a while. I do a lot of writing though, so I don't think it'll be a problem for me to get into this again.

I'll be posting my deep thoughts that i get, which most of the time come when I'm spending time with God and after midnight. I'll also probably write about things that are randomly on my mind. So yea, leave your comments when you can.